Reality: Its never as good as you imagine...

I don't watch much 'reality tv', most of my time I do my best to avoid it, but eatting my Chinese the other day I ended up watching The X-Factor (think Pop Idol). I'd seen it a few times before so I thought I knew what I was letting myself in for.....
Turns out I was wrong.

Do they have to fight her to win? O.o

Bison less sexified

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And I thought Second Life could be strange.

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I don't think I'll be watching again *shiver*

I think I'm in the process of making my first sellable product. Its going to be a photo prop... or maybe just general use furnature depending on the types of full perm poses I can get my hands on. When its finished its should be between 40-50 prims which I think is okay. I might even try my hand at creating some rust textures for it. Seeing as I barely have a clue what I'm doing I don't think its turned out all that bad. And I'll be selling it cheep anyways.

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I've been away from SL for a little while now so just giving a small, rather crippled wave to the few lovely people who read this. Between clambering over rocks, canooing and too much computer I've managed to damage my arm to the point I'm being forced to do things with my left hand to stop that bruised feeling that runs right up the length of my arm, or worse, the stabbing pain I get at the base joint of my middle finger. I don't really use the computer as much as a lot of people, I guess its just bad genetics. Curse you parents!

Also, I've restarted work on my graphic novel, catching up on my reading, trying to wring out something literary wise in the hopes of one day getting the small glory of seeing it in print, been on the search for a better job and taking some courses. So busy but hopefully when I have both arms in use I'll be back with a vengence. Until then I'll do my best to stalk from the blogs... *Stalk stalk*

Two days before I'm clinging to the side of a cliff with the sea raging below me *Shivershiver* and since the first person's now decided they'd rather not do it it seems it'll just be me and one other *shivershivershiver*.

 I've been getting help on some of the hunts by a cool cat called Vivian who can easy finish a hunt in a single day whilst I drift along behind hoving up the scraps.

Munching cheese under the moon

:P

P.s. Account is being an ass again. If I don't reply its not because I'm ignoring you, I'm genuinly not there -_-;

Macabre hunt complete! But why stop there? There's the Game Day (which I think is the new man hunt), Freaky Fall and Steam Punk which I started on but then decided it would be much more fun chasing after ba- *thinks a moment and reconsiders* footballs. Oh, and the super hard GBLT hunt too. So many prizes to find and so little time.

And I've finally stopped dithering and decided I won't be trying Nevaria. I decided to ask one of the admins for the sim that I was helping out on the hunt how likely it was that I'd be accepted to play as a Clockwork and that as much as I'd like I expected chances were very slim and that I had a nice rabbit character planned instead since that was listed as one of the open main races. As I expected, they weren't taking anymore of my first choice........... but then I found out that they'd closed off another of the three 'main' races too including my second choice. I'm glad I talked to her. If I had decided to go ahead and apply anyway it would be upsetting to waste the energy creating characters only to have them turned down because of something it would be impossible for me or any newcomer to know as it is. But as it is a little ruffled but atleast with a direction of where to go with my next rp. Won't be taking the advice to join one of the less popular mermaid/man or.... e.... e.... elf. *twitch* So for the forseeable future the book on Nevaria is closed.

I'll be taking Ward into Midian. He was played for two days in GODS but I only really understood what I was doing with him after those few awkward steps. I think he might be ready now and hopefully I can get him enrolled as a paramedic. We'll see, I won't get my hopes too high, just try and enjoy it for whatever comes out of it.

Edit: Hello world, are you having fun? I'm not sure I'm enjoying this as much as you. *Sighs* I log in to find she got sungura confused with bastet.... *slowly droops to one side* Is it possible to make my mind up about something without being thrown up ten feet into the air after. ..... *Is more confused than ever*

I'be become a walking advertisment for Happy Dispatch ^.^ That's the third time now I've been complementd on my AO and asked for a landmark, they should make me an afflicate, lol.

A group of vamps have moved in to the appartement below me. They seem nice and having someone more noobish than me about makes a nice change (i.e. thinking it was my furnature pokng through the ceiling when it was actually some of hers that had ended up in mine).

Also there's a Laybrynth themed Masquerade @Wishbox. I will definatly be slinking along to check it out.

P.s.
Intrigue.Co have cuts on a whole bunch of their products upstairs, tees are 10L$ and hoodies 25L$ *is in heaven*

So I won't be going to Nevaria after all. I don't think I'd fit into that tiny box of normality said person seems to find acceptable. So I get worked up over stupid things but the generalisation of an entire group ticks me off, I can't help it and I don't think I even want to change that fact. I rarely have to close a chat because I'm getting so annoyed. I have nothing against furries (or anyother group) and people can get up to whatever fetishs entertain them in the privacy of their own homes. If they went around trying to force people to be like them I'd understand but whwhy should something that doesn't concern me make me think they're all 'creepy'. If they're a nice person something like that shouldn't change your opinion on them. For someone who likes the tales of Alice in Wonderland closed minded thinking does not compute. The beauty of madness is the ability to see outside the veils of the norm and step into far more beautiful and dark places. If you're going to be so constrained what is the point of creating such a wonderful fantasy; you'll never be able to explore it fully.

Midian, honestly, if that doesn't work out I'll be giving up on rp for a long while.

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But then does having that kind of opinion against someone I view as a bit pejudiced make me prejudiced. And should I base my soul opinion of the sim on the owner instead of striding forth and doing my bit to show just how deep the rabbit hole can go... *rubs head* Damn, for now I just concentrate on getting my hunt goodies which despite whatever else I am greatful for.

Oooo, an apple!

Got my coasteering mini break coming up, fingers crossed right? As long as the wind doesn't turn the sea into a violent maelstrom I think I'll be okay. And if things goes really bad I'll just pick a nice rock to cling to and scream my head off. Always gotta have a contingency plan :P

And that'll be the third trip this year in England..... very patriotic but kinda boring so right now I'm looking through trips to Germany for the Christmas markets. Berlin seems more expensive than I thought but Dusseldorf, Bruges and Cologne are decently priced and have more than enough for me to check out while I'm there. One day I'd like to have an explore around the Black Forest and take a look at where atleast some of my blood comes from, but no point in doing that until I have enough money to make it a proper experience.

.... Better learn how to say more than my name and that I have a white dog. Always been pretty bad a languages.

I was feeling so happy about finding a hunt full of so many things I can use and finding out the person who'd organised it ran Nevaria. I got quite far before getting stuck so went to get some help in group. I find it really annoying to ask for help and only be posted the blog, two of which I have up and was reading at the time, especially when my post refers to the hint there or it isn't relevant at all to what I'm asking. Its like a kid asking for help with their homework only to be handed the class textbook. Then I realised that person was the same as the one who had said hi back to the girl I was hunting with yesterday and greated me with silence when I said thanks and that it was one of the bests hunts I'd been on, aka owner of said rp sim. ... And it was that that small thing threw me off my happy hunting grin and dreams of how great Nevaria was going to be once I got accepted.

I hate being the kind of person who so easy changes their mind over the stupidest things. I think whatever I like or aspire to I'll find something to whine about or a reason to give up. And if I do manage to avoid that I tip to the other extreme and plunge myself so deeply that I refuse to accept the problems that everyone else can see until it finally falls appart or even the painful grip of my fingers can't hold it in place. One day a happy medium would be nice, to learn to be content for more than just a moment. I know that in a lot of ways I'm a very lucky person, just my perspective is skewed and I can't seem to get it into the right position.

On a side note I have a habbit of growing to like people who at first get on my nerves so who knows *shrugs* And now I will spend the rest of my day hacking away on my wii.